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sirndipiti

Sojourn...

..so it's a journey...with "friends only" welcome to most of it


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head-4-12-15
sirndipiti

the shit sandwich...

there are days when it's hard to breathe at first, an overstuffed feeling like post thanksgiving day bloat--on waking up the sheets and pillowcase feel damp and chilly like it was hot and humid before and then the temperature dropped making everything cold and damp--doesn't matter if the temperature's 75deg F, it still feels cold and damp--and there's this almost undefined uneasyness in the pit of the stomach, not quite nausea but a big breakfast would not be a good idea--a little voice somewhere behind the ear says, "this will not be a good day"--and you believe the voice, 'cause you've heard it before and it tells the truth--then the thinking starts: i feel so rotten, am i ill, was there a dream, what did i eat last night, check the pulse: a little fast, head like a warm wet sponge, and heavy, sooo heavy--take a deep breath--get up...

..and the day goes on and goes on and goes on--and the urge to ask anyone, everyone, strangers on the street: what the hell's wrong? but you don't--it'll pass, tomorrow will be better, or the next, next day...

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Hmm, now although that sounds like a fairly good plan, would it actually work?? If we were to take some of each others bitterness, we would no longer know what we were bitter about. Then there would be added bitterness caused by the confusion of what the bitterness was about in the first place. Hmm...

..now, there's one thing i certainly don't need any more of--

maybe just a virtual hug (((((moon baby)))))

cheers!

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